So. I'm at my friend's dorm atm. Remember Justin from last journal? Not gonna happen. He apparently likes some other girl(not to mention he has a fuck buddy anyway). So, another one bites the dust, so to speak... Gah, why can't I find guys that like me back ever?

But I did see Kevin today. At Radioshack, where he works. He was friendly. But then, he was working, so I guess he was supposed to be... Not even gonna get hopeful about it since every time I do, it blows up in my face... He helped me buy a voice recorder. Unfortunately, it's not the kind I need, as I found out once I got back from the mall. Didn't have time to return it... Maybe I will tomorrow. -sigh-

Well, in trying not to be depressed again, I watched UP, which was purchased at the mall earlier in the day. Such a cute movie. Sad at parts, but really good. I love it. Made me feel a little bit better.

Doing a photostory on funeral directors. I am totally going to fail this course... I don't really have time to do this and a thousand other things for school and manage to find a way to make it interesting. I mean, it'd be a different story if there weren't privacy laws and people didn't mind me photographing them embalming their loved ones and showing emotion and all that. Gah, how am I going to get this to work... Plus it doesn't help that I'm so unprofessional no matter what I do... Fuck. I dunno how I'm going to do this, another photo story that will be even harder because we have to actually make prints for it, all the other prints I need for photo 2, all the other things I need to do for photoJ, and all the assorted other shit for school...

Also, I got majorly depressed yesterday because during one of my classes while I was working up in the lab, Steve waltzes in and starts talking to one of the profs helping up there...And if that wasn't bad enough, it sounds like he'll be taking some of the classes I need to take next semester... I swear, if he's in any of my classes, I'm going to fucking do something drastic. Just can't handle that right now... And if you don't know who the hell I'm talking about, all you need to know is that he broke my heart in a way its never been broken before. And then stepped on it and well. You get the point. But that's a story for a day when I'm not trying to keep myself from being depressed...

On the 21st, I am supposed to volunteer at a vegan dinner thing at a place I've never been to that's like 2 and a half hours away... I was SUPPOSED to be carpooling with another friend of mine who was supposed to be going also, but apparently he didn't know I was going and never got a ticket or asked to volunteer and now there aren't any more tickets or volunteer slots open... So I guess I'm going alone... How fun... Well, at least I'll get some free food out of it...

Gah, sorry for long journal entries....